So my first Thanksgiving was not as bad as i had built it up to be in my head. Things are never the same when you can’t overindulge as you had for the last 30 years, but different did not necessarily mean bad... just different. The day became less about stuffing myself, and more about reflection on the last year, and being truly thankful for life and an overwhelming amount of blessings. While I HATE not being able to be with family during the holidays, it was nice to spend the day with good friends. I have really been blessed with lots of those...
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I guess the first thing to do here, would be to introduce myself. My name is Ed Merkel, I am 30 and live in Roanoke Rapids, NC. I have been married almost 4 years to Sarah. I am originally from Carlsbad, NM. I found my way to the East coast through my job as a Youth Pastor at First Christian Church, which we have been at for 3 years now. I am a Dallas Cowboys fanatic, and adore being outside hunting, fishing, or hiking..
My, my ... how time does FLY when you are having FUN! It is hard to believe that just one year ago today I was having my gastric by-pass.
When I began this journey, I was aware that I was an emotional eater. It was my hope that bariatric surgery would prove to be the tool that would help physically stop me long enough for a spiritual solution to take hold and move me to a higher ground. This month that hope became a reality. I believe I am now ready to lay out in detail the events that lead to my NEED to emotionally eat and the victory that I am now experiencing as a result of not being able to physically do so.
My last three months have been filled with varying emotions ranging from overwhelming excitement to utter discouragement, but the one thing that has remained constant is my determination to succeed at losing ALL this excess weight! No matter how long it takes! Being a life-long dieter, there are a few “truths” I have experienced along the way. One is the last few pounds are ALWAYS the hardest to lose. Another is the number on the scale is NOT always a good indicator of success.
How I stay motivated when...I am physically sick and don't feel like working out; when I step on the scales and the number is the same as the two weeks before; when I am having a "fat day". Until now I have blogged about all the COOL exciting stuff going on in my life. I figured it was time to let you in on a little secret - Sometimes it is VERY difficult to stay on the path and stay motivated.
The thought came to me .. why don't you just try them to SEE how far you have to go before you can wear them. I almost started crying when I got them on and zipped them! What a blessing it is to have a friend walking this journey with me. We are "out-shrinking" clothes so fast it is nice to have someone to share clothes.
Everyone was so complimentary at the wedding. I was on cloud nine and one would have thought I was the bride with the smile I was sporting. Loving the gift of a new life!
I still remember when I bought this shirt. It was June of 2010. I was shopping for an upcomingtrip to TX and wanted something pretty that "traveled nicely." I LOVED it.. the colors - the pattern and at the time it "hid" or "masked" my size well, so I thought.
What an exciting time the last two months have been on my weight loss journey! I bought my first bathing suit while at the beach during Easter and it was a size smaller than what I expected to be able to wear! I bought four really cute dresses and feel like a million bucks when I wear them. I am finally allowing pictures to be taken of me and I actually like them and don't mind them being posted (and tagged) on Face Book! These are some of the satisfying events that have happened over the last 2 months.
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Congrats!! Amy work it now!!!
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Way to go Amy! I love the picture of you on the bike!
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I could not have said it better myself. I feel EXACTLY the same. Thought I was alone. Are these feelings...
Ed, I am new to crossfit and couldnt have said this more better myself! Congrats on your progress and...
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Thank you for your story and sharing.. I am thinking about having the surgery. I loved the turtle story...
Keep it up Ed. Your CFRM family is with you all the way.
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I related to you reading this. Some of this is me. You word things perfectly as always. Thank you for...
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Ed I'm proud of you man. That is not an easy struggle and it looks like you are doing incredibly well...
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what an inspirational journey and story! Thanks a lot. Anticipating surgery soon. Wish me well.